Mickey Eye

I'm so sorry, it never gets any easier

On the dating side of things. I had a really awesome one night stand? Which leaves me feeling a bit down right now because I don't really like one night stands. Unless it's a group thing, but that's a whole other post. I would love to date this girl but she's in a romantic relationship with someone who is monogamous and it's important to her that she not fall in love with anyone else. Myself, I'm happy to explore non romantic relationships too. I follow the Relationship Anarchy model of polyamory. My only other significant relationship is neither romantic nor sexual, but she is an important person in my life, so it's not like I can't do that.

But we clicked so damn well. We may explore a more regular sexual relationship, that would be awesome, but it'll take some work on my part to not get overly attached. And she has grey eyes, which is like, my only weakness.

Okay so I've been binge watching this the past few days. I'm somewhere late season 2 and I cannot go on. It's rare for me to ditch a series that I've invested time into because usually I'm at least interested in seeing how they tie things up. It's just that right now I do not care about any single one of the characters at all. 

And yes it bothers me how fucking stupid Lucifer is. There's not one ounce of wit or self insight in the character. It plays around with some fun ideas but they are all so shallow and undeveloped that it becomes a meaningless blur. 

Thing is, it got cancelled at the end of season 3. A lot of people seem to like it, and now it's getting a fourth season on Netflix. I know Netflix will literally make anything but whhhhhhhhhhhy.

Occasional fun moments.

Satanist: "I thought you were supposed to be blond"

Lucifer: "Yes I get that a lot"

Against all odds.

Enjoy whatever it is y'all do

On 12/16/2018 at 11:58 PM, Spain said:

Mickey Eye, about the health issues, it is hard and it can happen to anyone. Try to keep focus, it usually helps during turnmoils.

About the split, I don't have any words of wisdom but I must confess that the bit of 'i split in November' and 'i see this lady since February' made say HMM out loud.

But if you don't mind, let me ask you a couple questions...

What in the name of Skynet is that and how do you get paid for that???

Well, polyamory is a thing also. So remarkably common among the people around me that I didn't actually think about it.

Robot babies! SimBaby and SimNewB. They were medical mannequins, ie designed to simulate a whole host of medical conditions for training hospitals in procedures. 

https://www.laerdal.com/no/products/simulation-training/obstetrics-paediatrics/simbaby/

As for getting paid for it, it was a terribly fun job. But as I said, being 500km from everyone I care about didn't sit well with me. Though I'd probably do it again if I had a cat sitter. They offered me more work... designing the next generation of... well... this? https://www.laerdal.com/no/products/simulation-training/obstetrics-paediatrics/prompt-flex/

Imgur is better

Lots of awesome in this thread

Was inspired to return by how fucking awful Facebook has become.

So I shall attempt to sum up the last few years of my life in some kind of meaningful way.

I spent approximately a year and a half on sick leave from work, we eventually agreed to each go our own way. I then started at a company designing robot babies. That was fun but it was only a temporary contract and it was too far away from my friends, so I did that for 9 months. Since June I've been (f)unemployed. I've been on one interview which was from me cold calling a company, they would hire me if they had a project that they felt needed someone with my seniority. I'm doing okay on benefits for now. But I don't want to do this for too long.

My mental health has been so so at best. Going to group therapy etc, taking the appropriate pills, seems to be having some kind of positive affect. I've had a pretty bad period of depression since at least October, but while it is recognisably awful, it's far more tolerable than it used to be. My post transition, face surgery etc, physical health is nominally fine. I've taken up sword fighting as a form of exercise, would recommend if you like bruises. 

I seem to bounce around relationships a bit. I split up with my girlfriend in early November after a bit over a year together, while it was a fairly amicable split I'm still feeling very hurt about it. I have a long distance queerplatonic relationship with a woman in Gothenburg and we see each other on average once a month since February. But I do feel like I need something closer to home.

I'm not looking forward to Christmas at all. I have plans for New Years now, which will keep me going. But I'm so lonely, it's breaking me into pieces. I spend nearly all my time alone, and I'm trying to break out of that. Seeing friends, making plans, but I am hurting a lot.

23 hours ago, Lou K said:

I dislike work travel greatly. Don't have to do much these days but you've reminded me of it

There was a time I kinda enjoyed the long distance stuff to China etc, but no, every week was tiring. And staying in Stavanger over the weekends would have made me even more depressed. Then I had someone living in my apartment looking after my cat, no longer a thing either so there's logistics to work out.

Hahaha, noooooo.

The job was a 6 month contract that got extended to 9. The wanted me to stay another year at the end of that but the job was in Stavanger. I was flying home to Oslo every weekend and super depressed and lonely the rest of the time. I declined the offer, they've since asked me to come back again and it's sorely tempting but I know that I'm better off being in a city that doesn't feel like it's killing me. Which is a shame because the job was really cool and I enjoyed it.

Was a fun new experience getting my job of 12 years mansplained to me after I transitioned. It's not just blatant sexism, before I transitioned people would take my word when I suggested a solution to something, and assume I'd implement it. Afterward people who have zero competence in my field would ask me to explain things in detail, even though I was not answerable to them. I wasn't used to it and it took me a while to accept it.

Right now I greatly dislike being unemployed and having split up with my girlfriend.

I did actually :)

hrt dried it out a bit but not much, and I learned how to look after it properly. 

https://m.imgur.com/HoVRDGL

I dont look how I used to look

Mark... sounds familiar.

Oooh, do you have any club recommendations if I pop over to London?

Well... not sure you'd get as much out of "She" as I did and it's pretty strict on it's "No Boys" policy. G-A-Y Late I didn't enjoy that much to be honest, cheesy disco and not enough women.... however Dance Tunnel in Dalston was awesome.

Plus it's a touch of glamour while you sleep.

 

Ear muffs are the best thing when it's cold. I haven't worn mine this year because I need to hear a small shouty person but I have at least four pairs. :-)

 

Love the pic, Lou.

Actually I totally could be wearing the ear muffs. I'll give them a go tomorrow morning. I tend to not wear my hat these days and I need something to keep my ears warm before the car heats up. Pooka, you really are the best gift giver!

You're welcome!

 

You can never have too much nail polish.

It's really light colours that I didn't think I liked but I actually really do :P The things you find out :) The ear warmers may find some use, the eye mask almost certainly.

My New Years was a three day clubbing in London extravaganza. Good way to start.

I'm so sorry. Will fix. Also super big massive thank you for the nail polish Pooka!

I have received mine... I have not managed to find anything for that special someone though :( I need to step up.

Seeing it at 5pm this evening. I didn't realise how excited I was about this.

I thought it was great. Christmas special looked.... off. But maybe I'll be surprised.

It's asymmetrical. Like, pixie cut all the way round with one long bang. Love it.